So the Monkey is spending the night with grandparents. Not my fam, but with my father-in-law! His first time ever to spend the night with them! He was so excited- he asked all morning when we were going to go to thier house, and he helped pack his bag and everything. When we got there, they were out in their yard, and when I opened the car door, he hollered, "Hey!" at them. And he had no trouble at all with me leaving!
It was great! I'm really glad that he's able to spend time with them! And I'm really thankful that they were cool with the whole "keep him while I'm in town before you keep him when I'm out of town" rule that we've had. I made my family do it, too.
So this afternoon I've been basking in having no responsibilities. I had a really bad headache, though. I took a nap and took aleve and cold medicine, though, and that helped.
Then I went to Barnes and Noble with my library book (Gone With the Wind- very good, and I'll discuss when I'm done) and got a latte and a sugar cookie and sat and read my book. I was sad, though, because I had one of those moments where I really missed my husband. Going to get coffee and read has always been one of our favorite things to do, and I just really missed his presence.
I'm thankful that God has changed my heart in that area. For a while I was not looking forward to my husband's return. There were several reasons...
First, because I've really been enjoying the freedom that I've had. I've only had to deal with my schedule and my opinions and my wants. Totally selfish!
B- I wasn't, and still am not, looking forward to the transition when he comes home. It will be complete bliss for the first weeks, but I know that it will be hard to learn to live together again. And it's so much easier to let things go when we're just having a relationship over the phone. We've both changed over this year and a bit, and we're going to have to deal with that, also. And we're going to have to deal with the Child's reaction to Daddy being home, too.
Third, there were some other, smaller reasons that just made me unenthusiastic about him comming back. Things like living situation, money, etc...
Fourth, I never really let myself think about him comming home. So my focus for the past year and a bit has been on just living in the present, rather than on a date or time in the future. So it's been a little bit of a challenge to change my mindset in that area. I think that God totally guarded my heart in that way, and I'm thankful that I did have that mindset, but now it needs to be changed.
So anyways, in the past month, God has changed my heart. I'm ready for my husband to come home. I'm ready to share life and responsibility again with him. I'm ready to have my partner back. I'm really looking forward to spending time as a family together again. I think that, for the most part, it will feel like home again to have him here.
Ok, that was long and rambly...
Um... After I got coffee, I went to Target and got some stuff we'd been needing. It was so great to just sort of wander, and not have to answer a million questions or keep the cart out of reach of the merchandise or argue with the Monkey that no, he cannot have that really ugly pair of pants. No matter how much he likes them.
This evening I'm going to see a movie with the Gerkes. And then later I might take a bath and give myself a pedicure. And in the morning, I'm going to go to get coffee on the way to church in the morning! All by myself!